I've heard of self sabotaging behaviors...but don't understand them much. Like I have a hard time accepting someone loving me unconditionally and I make my relationships difficult because of that by my behaviors and thoughts.
Anyways, I guess there are lots of books out there about that..just looking quickly one person recommended : Your Own Worst Enemy: Understanding the Paradox of Self-Defeating Behavior (1993) by Steven Berglas and Roy F. Baumeister argues that there are multiple explanations for why individuals sabotage themselves. (Actually, looking at the publishing date, it's probably outdated- but it's just an example.)
And again, I don't know if that pertains to you or not...
Or it could be simply "a body in motions stays in motion...a body at rest stays at rest". Probably not though.