It's funny when I sit here and think about it. How can one person withdraw that many times?!?!? He has honestly gone through withdrawals 35 times. And every time (like now) that he's down and out he looks at me and says "omg I'm such an idiot!" okay then stop being an idiot.
For my AH it's once he starts feeling okay not so sick. Once the upset stomach, diarrhea, aches, pains, sleeplessness, hot & cold flu-like symptoms go away that's when he wants to use... And that's when my job gets tougher.
I do want everyone to know that if he chooses to relapse this time around I have prepared myself to leave. I guess I need to say this out loud or see it written on the screen for my own mind.
