Just let me know, I'm within a$$whooping distance.
You know, I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone, but here's what I see:
I follow your journey and compare it to mine. I see your X showing action where mine never did (he kept talking about how much he had changed, but I never saw any change). The "last thing I want to do" raises a red flag for me and makes my BS detector activate. But that's because
my A was and is a BS artist of incredible talent.
But what I think I see is him trying. And that is worth acknowledging. And I also see the oceans of difference between an RA who
tries and one who has figured out what behavior is desired from him and displays that behavior until he gets what he wants and can go back to being his alcoholic self again.