Dan I feel so frustrated for you. I did this..I stopped drinking Aug 22nd. Made it all the way to 10/3..birthday party tripped me up. I was livid that I started because I am a lush from hell..no stopping once I started but I had all the good intentions. I farted around with it for 3 weeks NOT drinking daily. But thinking hmmm...I blew my date..BUT it got worse and worse. I thought I was bad before..I was a staggering idiot. FINALLY just got MAD and stopped!! You have to stop. If you find you can't get some help. It does come back with a vengeance...I used to drink whiskey and beer mostly..well the beer was like drinking Kool Aid..I hit the hard stuff. Don't blow your liver and your self esteem..you can do this..if not..look for some help. I found HR and I will give back all the help and encouragement I have received. I care Dan. We all do.