Sorry to say, but I feel disaster is going to happen. Firstly anyone who drinks like we did, i.e. two bottles of Vodka a day, cannot possibly be anything like a "normal drinker", I feel this is the disease telling you that you are ok to drink, the mind is tricking you into thinking "yes, I can just have a drink with dinner" or "yay I can have just two drinks". Denial is setting in, you are convincing yourself that everything will be fine, ok and dandy, then......pow bang you will be right back on it again. Please think everything through right to the end before you take the next drink. I have been there so many times before, I know how it will end if I take a drink???!!! take care x