My prayer for anyone, especially you sleepie, is to remain close to those who can help alleviate the suffering that others caused.
I wish so badly that I could find those people. And that if I did, that they would want me around. I have never, ever had a mentor or anyone who seemed close to me without wanting something. That leads me to believe that I am worthless. If I had any qualities worth attention- someone would have noticed. At best, someone may want me as a distraction (my girl friends of past) or maybe a quick, forgettable f***- (my male acquaintances)- but nothing substantial.