Thanks Gettingby... I needed to hear that. Unhappy is unhappy and wanting better for me no matter how good or bad I have it compared to others is what is important. I see how twisted our thoughts get once we are involved with an A. We put up with stuff we never thought we would have. We excuse behavior, keep trying to make things better, keep pushing and searching for normality in our relationship. Then we get to the point where we are done smacking our head into a brick wall. I just got to the point I was so tired and mentally frazzled I knew something had to change.