Originally Posted by EmeraldRose

I didn't have alot of drinking buddies anyway, since I didn't drink in the bars. So I don't have to worry about cutting the cord. I am used to being home alone. Separated and daughter is 18 slowly flying the nest, 3 boys in other states. I am taking this time alone (which I don't mind) to fully understand who I am as a person. I never lived my life sober long...a week or year here and there. Now I have to face myself and I like it.
There is a difference between being alone and feeling lonely. Although I am alone, I am far from lonely. My new friends stem from AA and rehab. All of which are in the same mindset as me. You may want to consider diving into AA if not for recovery reasons just the reason of having a connection with others. People who truly know what its like.
OH, I love this site and am here very very often, too -BUT you do need to get OUT of the house. I find that I am looking forward to sitting with my friends. If we aren't talking about past drinking experinces we are talking about doing hair, farmers talk about calving, jobs, kids, etc. It is just an hour out of my comfort zone at home but I find it very rewarding towards my recovery.