I know how you feel, going into my 30s I kicked the drugs (and druggies) out of my life, 5 years later I got sick of hearing the same old drunken rantings of my raging alcoholic friends and kicked them out of my life... I ended up with no friends, no 'steady' job, no self confidence and I just kept on drinking every night and dealing with the pains of withdrawal everyday. Only to find out now many of them have the things listed above, they moved on, but I did not. I often felt as powerless in social gatherings as I am against alcohol, I have always been the lone wolf who makes for easy pickings up against the rival pack mentality. I have generally screwed up friendships with people that I should have been hanging out with and those who could and would have helped me in many ways...
aaaaargh! I guess I'm having a bad Monday and need to get some things done around here as well.
