Originally Posted by
Marcusk87 
I dont even know if im an alcoholic. I cant manage my life sober either. ITs like bad if im sober but suicide if I drink. No win. Just a lesser of 2 evils.
That's alcoholism as I know it.
The level of honesty you bring to your sobriety is up to you. The level of willingness you bring to your sobriety is up to you. A good sponsor can help you through all this anger, but nobody can help you if you're not honest and willing. There
is a win -- it's in the honesty and the willingness. It's not without pain and it doesn't happen overnight -- and doesn't happen at all unless you make the decision.
If you feel you can't talk with your sponsor, or if your sponsor isn't willing to take you through the steps, find another one. Please.
Peace & Love,
Sugah