Being honest with myself
I can't lie to myself anymore.
I am tired of blaming my alcoholism on:
- failed relationships
- being depressed
- failure to live up to expectations
- being gay
- feeling as though the world is against me
I am tired of the excuses.
I am tired of escaping down a bottle.
I am tired of the guilt, the shame and the hangovers.
I am tired.
But I want to make things right.
I know I am almost powerless against this disease but I won't let it kill me.
Enough is enough.