When our rational mind makes a decision that the heart has a hard time with...like when we go no contact and we long to see them again....we are sad and depressed.
When both the head and heart make the decision as one....as you are going through now....it is total physical and emotional mayhem!
In the last week with my EX as I was packing, working, caring for pets, making calls, arranging the truck and trailer, busy busy busy. I thought I was going completely insane. I was vomiting, I had laughing spells, I cried, I had stomach pains, I also had my period, I had headaches and dizziness, I would jump at the slightest sound, I felt blue, I felt euphoric, I had adrenaline rushes.
I was a one-woman encyclopedia of medical disease!
So many here can say the same thing.
It will all be over soon and the internal chaos will resolve as the external chaos does.
Stay strong. Have faith!
Alice