I made through another day. Yesterday I felt anger at him kick in and I think that was why I had more energy and was able to get quite a bit done.
I did not sleep as well last night and once I got up this intense "missing him" feeling is kicking in. So many thoughts wondering through my mind, I just wanna crawl back under the covers and wake back up and today is over. I keep telling myself you can't lose something that was never yours to begin with, but that's not helping as I sit here and type this with tears streaming down my face.
Who knows maybe it's just feelings of grief that I have to go through to get past this, but I sure don't like feeling this way. :c021
It's going to be a long day today. Only working half a day, then going to the tanning bed, (free week of tanning) then back home and work around the house.
Please keep me in your thoughts today as I'm feeling weak, lonely, scared, alone, sad, confused and just unsure.
Thank you for reading.