((((Sylvie))))...
YOU CAN DO THIS!!! The thing I've learned through my recovery is that some people are just not healthy for me, and going to them for support/validation isn't a good idea. Find those healthy people and stick with them.
Deep breaths, and you WILL get through this. We are here for you because WE care and understand all too well how this feels for you.
You're eating an elephant... do it one bite at time.
So just for today... focus on that, and step by step, you'll climb that mountain!