I give you permission to get MAD!!! Get angry! We are all different and we work in different ways. i was taught to be nice, act nice, look nice. After working the steps, my group told me i had permission to be MAD at the drugs at the people who helped me be addicted. i was angry at the drugs mostly, their ability to control me!! i learned to hate them and our society that pushes them on us. i learned that the drugs were my enemy and i was ready to get mad and fight. for me, being angry is better than feeling hopeless and pitiful. love yourself but see the drugs for what they are, your bitter enemy that wants you dead. refuse to let them win and know that there are many friends of Bill who have won before you. they have made the path for you to follow. trust the process. GET ANGRY!