So I talked to the doctor today. All he said was that I felt like I was going to hurt myself I should go back to the hospital. I don't know if I am willing to put myself through that again. I had 2 appointments scheduled with a therapist, but she said she was going to set me up with another person that "was easier to get in with." As it turns out, this person can only see me on Monday's, so that didn't work out and they went and canceled the appointments I had with the first person. I'm really trying to reach out for help, but I just keep getting shot down. I'm just about ready to give up. I really don't care anymore. Sorry to be such a downer.