Lipitor - Sadly, I have to agree with you. I'm not saying everyone would end up like I did, but my attempts at controlling it led me to 24/7 drinking in the end. At night I had to have one at my bedside, afraid to wake up with the shakes. I went from beer to 100 proof vodka, and felt absolutely nothing. Yet still I was terrified to lay it down and see what life might be like on the 'other side'. How insane - I had convinced myself I needed that garbage to live.
Happyme - We are rooting for you, & someone will be around whenever you need to vent or talk.