Thank you
I'm crying reading all your messages. It's such a relief to read these boards and know that I'm not alone, and nor am I imagining my problem with alcohol (my drinking self and certain heavy drinking "frends" try so hard to convince me that I don't have a problem). Even if I do manage to stop at 2 drinks, which is very rare, I am never satisfied and want and crave more and more SO badly. I've been trying to control my drinking for my entire adult life and I haven't been able to, and I am here now saying STOP this madness. I have such an amazing husband, and wonderful children and I get it now, I'm ready to admit to myself I have to stop trying to control it and playing games with amounts and boundries. If I don't take that first drink then it's all irrelevant.
10th April 2011 is the first day of my sober life.