Thank you all. We've been talking, and I think he understands that I plan to leave. He talked to me today to try to get me to stay:
- "I've been doing a LOT better. That was a special case."
- "If you stay, I promise I'll toe the line." 'Who's line?' "Yours!"
- "I only slipped up twice in the last 5 months."
- "I don't see why you won't give me a chance, at least!"
I'm no longer willing to live with an active alcoholic. His words indicate to me that he's not even willing to admit he is an alcoholic, let alone do anything beyond 'trying to not drink.'
I am tired of the random, arbitrary {mess} I get whenever he's drunk in my presence. I won't live with the possibility of it anymore.
He asked me to think it over really hard until Sunday, and then let him know my decision; and that if I decide to go, I have a plan. Fair enough. I'm going to look at houses on Monday.
My 22yo daughter thinks I'm making a good decision. So does my coworker. I haven't told anyone else, besides my ds. I'm a bit afraid to, because ABF is such a popular guy. Well, it won't be the first or last time I make an unpopular decision.
I'm going to be a bucket of tears, though. Wish me luck this weekend...
- Sylvie