VL you said you did the detox and such yourself .. how did that work for you ? its obvious it didnt work out .. time to try the other way and not make excuses for things like cleaning the dishes and other things to do now , the only thing you need to do now is make the calls get in where ever you can not having income or anything like that is just a excuse to yourself .. you had money to get dinner you had money to mail a parcel you had money to drink , sure its not the right amount of income to pay for rehab , but you can get in one for free .. but you need to decide whats more inportant in your life , Only you can change what YOU dont like .. so hows bout changing it NOW