One year ago today...
...I broke up with the alcoholic in my life. It was the saddest, most tragic-feeling, most horrible day and time in my life. Truly.
I felt broken, misunderstood, hopeless. I was in agony.
My SR family helped to get me through that time, to nourish the tiniest little part of me that knew, just KNEW, that I could have a different kind of life. I had to believe it could be different because it had gotten so unbelievably painful.
So many SR people helped to get me through that. In my heart I reach out to you with more gratitude that I can possibly express. Thank you.
These days I am working my Alanon program with the loving support of my sponsor and program friends. I'm beginning to date again, and working through what "unavailability" and "addictive qualities" look like. I'm getting better every day. I understand myself better, love myself better, and give back so much more fully than I ever could before, when I was operating from my disease.
It has not been an easy year, but it has been the best year of my life.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Hugs and gratitude,
posie