Originally Posted by
Sylvie66 
I HATE the idea of leaving, of starting over, of being broke, and lonely, and the tangle of "I love you; I just won't live with you".
Hi Sylvie
What about the idea of something happening to the kid? what would you do with the guilt? sorry to be so blunt.
Where I live there are drunk driving accidents & tragedies every weekend. I live near a main street with many bars. I have some images fresh in my mind.
There are others here that have gone broke and have started over. Very wise, content and dare I say happy. You can earn more money somehow.
I don't have much money and rent a very small apartment. I am very very happy and wouldn't trade this for the beautiful large house I shared with XABF. Never in a million years. I was alone in a new city. Somehow things have worked out by themselves. And I realized the only moments of my life where I was truly lonely was when I was with XABF in one of his drunken stupors. THAT was loneliness.
And peace is priceless! Hugs.