I felt sure I would die the way I was living suic - and the really insidious thing with alcohol was I'd convinced myself I didn't really care.
When push came to shove tho, when I was really looking at dying....I found I really didn't want to die....I got some help and I changed my life.
These last 4 years sober have been amazing - I'm not anyone special...you can have this too suic...if you want it
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