So I'm helping you guys by posting this. I am only 24 BTW, just turned 24.
You're not helping me by posting that! I'm not sure if you're bragging or complaining. Are you proud that you are only 24 and your life seems be in a drunken tailspin or are you reaching out for support because you are young and want to change the direction of your life?
Getting mixed feelings from your posts...first you come close to putting a bullet in your head then you're not ready to die? I think, you need to reach out for support in your area in a positive way. I think you really want to live your life (since you are only 24) but need the attention to do so. Stay here and post and reach out to AA.
I have 3 boys between 20-29 and hate to see young lives just thrown away.