Sure I remember vividly how alcohol tastes,
smells and makes me feel even after 20 yrs.
sober. If I didnt crave it, want it, desire it, then
I definitely wouldnt be an alcoholic.
Am I sad or angry that I am one? Not at all. At
first I was in early recovery, but the tools and
knowledge of what alcoholism is all about and
how it affected me makes being one not so bad.
I mean, sure I have this uncureable disease but
It is manageable. In fact very simple if I continue
to incorperate the steps and principles in my every
day life. I also share my experiences, strengths
and hope with others that still suffer which in turn
keep me sober another day.
Religious program u say. Not religious just spiritual.
Say if ur physical, you walk, exercise, jog, move
about. Emotional would be feeling u have within.
Verbal would be talking. Then there's Spiritual which
is like sitting in the park alone listening to the birds,
admiring the beauty that surrounds you. The sun, it's
warmth, laughter of children near by. And so on. It's
being grateful to not be drunk or being mean or cruel
to others. It's the feeling u have inside when u r living
life right and just know that warm feeling inside is good.
Everyone has a certain spiritual side to them and you
have it too but may not be aware of it.
Continue to follow ur sober journey allowing all the
old timers to guide you along the way. As time goes on
and u remain sober, there will be many newcomers
to follow in ur path....share ur own ESH with them
letting them know what it was like before during and
after ur drinking. You will find lots of peace and graditude
with inside ur heart.
Good luck..!