I'm scaring myself silly R&A.
Hoping to ease the landing I suppose.
I don't know about tomorrow.. I'm an alcoholic and this is what I do.
A six pack to ease my jitters? The jokes on me. It's overpowering.
I've been fighting this for years thats all I can do.
I'm on my 4th one right now and already getting a little antsy about having only 2 left. But I do feel better.
I know it's kinda ******** to be drinking and posting on a recovery board... but nobody understands this nightmare better than you folks here.
I'll end it. Have to. I have the tools and I know I can do it.
But I'm scared man. Not in a very good place right now.
Probably sound like a lunatic posting here like this... I know I feel like one.