Hi DayWalker,
So sorry for your loss. Very sad. Of course you are not going to drink. Because Bob is with you now and always will be. If you drown him out with gargle, you will miss that.
Look around your circle, I bet there is a little baby about to be born. And for me, that is Bob coming back. Nobody dies without leaving someone in their place.
A young jockey died here recently, and just days later his cousin was born and then 2 other little babies in the neighbourhood. The circle of life. By the way, will you do the girls a favour and get out there! There is someone out there waiting to meet you and settle down. Maybe Bob stepped aside to leave you find your own way. You are ready to be able to fly now. You have done so well with sobriety, now share it with someone special. By the way, AA does not care when you last were there. Go to a meeting and get some face to face support and friendship.
Big squishy and annoying unmanly hugs to you from all of your friends here.
Bob