Hi MCESaint, thanks for sharing.
There are many, many of us here with AW's. Tons. Mine:
1. Got an OWI and screwed up her life and mine.
2. Always got VERY mad when I shared anything about her drinking, no matter how much it messed up our lives and my mental health, consider it wrong for me to be sharing "our private business". Endlessly frustrating and total bull. If you can't talk to your closest family and friends about your problems, how are you supposed to get support for YOURSELF in the midst of serious problems and life crisis? (I never did find a way to talk about AW's alcoholism without feeling guilty. Doesn't matter now, we're getting divorced.)
3. Was almost impossible to get into rehab, to convince her to stop drinking, to reason with her drunken mindset. Still blanked up after 16 years of failed efforts.
All I can say is, you are not alone. Coming here and venting will help you -- you can say anything you want! Al anon helps too, I know you're busy, but in the very early stage that you are in, you will find it a helpful balm for your wounds.
Good luck and God bless.