Sweetheart, I like you was first addicted to drugs. After being off them for quite a while took my first drink. Within 6 months I was a raging alcoholic. Could not understand how I was able to get in that condition in such a short time. What I learned was whenever you go to another addictive substance after already being an addict,whatever your worse day was with the previous drugs that's where your body takes up with the new one. It was awful. Like I said I never ever drank before, I didn't like alcohol. Was just offered a drink at a family function. That's all my system needed for me to spiral into another addiction. You are so young. Your whole life is waiting for you. Where this could lead is not to a good place.For me the addiction and rehab from alcohol was so much worse. Please seek the help you need now. You have to much to lose. Keep posting. God Bless