I envy you for being so young and coming to this realization that there is a problem. I really wish i had. I totaled a car, lost friends, got arrested, lost jobs, lost tons of respect, damaged my health, the list goes on and on. However i continued to drink. With the help of this forum and AA I know now that I NEVER have to go back to that way of living. i am a text book alcoholic. One part me + one part alcohol = distruction and hurt. I tried to "cut back" I made rules for myself. Nothing worked except complete abstinence from booze. You can do it!