You know though..for me, it's lonelier being married to someone, and having them completely emotionally unavailable. It's lonelier because if I go do something with the girls, I either have to bring the younger kids with, or make sure I'm home before oldest son(he's 15) goes to bed. The last time I just brought youngest with though, I heard(during a drunken rant) about how I had to be making friend and son up, they don't exist, I had to have been with some guy instead. Even though he's met this friend and her son. I brought it up a few days later, and he denied ever saying it. So really, I guess I'm supposed to stay home and wallow in self-pity and alcohol like he does.