Ok, so I went to the meeting- i got there early and forced myself to talk to the leader, I told her it was my first time, and she got me set up with a temporary sponsor after the meeting was over. All of the women were really nice- it was definitely overwhelming and I am truly mentally exhausted, but I'm overall glad I went. My temporary sponsor gave me the book to read and told me to make sure I get to a meeting sometime tomorrow, and to call her. So I have assignments, which I actually kind of like. Oh, and she told me not to drink tonight. That made me laugh. I am not really a crier, but several times during the meeting I started crying. There is so much more to sobriety than just not drinking. I am anxious now to learn and succeed.