Unfortunately I have little faith in mental therapy since my CPN ran away with my partner and child. I can't imagine I could ever again tell someone the things I confided in him, only to tell others around me.
I think I'm on the brink of a blow out now, I'm not sure when, how or what, but I am getting cornered, feeling very claustrophobic of myself but unable to find myself any space because I'm so agoraphobic, it's pushing me into a dark place where I'm not in complete control of my other me.