I was using and going to meetings. I had relationships with people in the program and I was lying to them, just like you.
When I got honest about whether or not I'd been using...that is when I could stay clean.
I fessed up and admitted I'd been using and really had a desire to learn to live a different way...without using drugs.
Honesty will set you free.
You could tell the people in the program first....then get honest with your loved ones later on. The people in the program will understand and respect you. Your loved ones will too when you choose to tell them.
Peace,
Missy