This is crazy. Crazy. Day 2, 7:00pm, all I want is a drink. Feels like every nerve in my body is screaming out for a bottle of wine. I look round the forums and see people still struggling after three months, six months, ten years and this is what day 2 is like what the hell is happening where do you find the strength to keep this up if it stays like this?
Been fine all day. I knew this was coming. I was as prepared for it as I could be. Doctor gave me some sleepers but I know if I use them to get through this I'm just replacing one problem with another and when the sleepers run out I'll be even more likely to drink again.
Can't go to bed at 7pm. Would be crazy. Can't go out, will end up in a pub or a shop. Can't settle to anything, can't get into a movie, can't even type this properly.
This is insane.