(((( jamaicamecrazy))))),
I stayed with my AH because I kept hoping he would become the man I knew he 'could' be. False hope based on my expectations. I'm leaving because the man he IS is not healthy for me and does unacceptable things.
It's hard. I feel so much guilt. I worry about the kids being mad, confused, sad, etc. I worry about how hurt/mad/upset he's going to be when he gets served... But that's what his HP is for... So I have to let go of the outcome, let go of the false dreams and live in the here and now... Just THIS moment.