Yes l am being totally serious.
Yes I do a mix of binge drinking and moderate drinking, it totally depends on my mindset and company. On some occasions if I'm not in the mood l'll have a few drinks and switch to coffee. On others I know my limits and l'll be well aware l'm going well well past them, say 1L of vodka and recognise I'll probably vomit later. Most of my blackouts are in company of others so they are able to tell me of my blackouts.
I do have 2x alcoholic family members within immediate family ie grandad and sister. Maybe l'm deluding myself, it's just that l have never caused any social harm like they have done as a result of their drinking which is why I get very angry/annoyed when people should say I should not cut, or drink on my own because it's like becoming an alcoholic?!