I am sorry that you are hurting , tho. This will pass, and you will be stronger and wiser.
I wish I had some good ideas. PurpleSquirrel had some great ones for you. Just be sure to give yourself the love you so deserve. The reading she suggested will be helpful too. When I am having hard times, reading those kinds of things really helps. Gets me strong, and gives me ideas I could never think of myself.
and you will get a lot of help here, cause there are some awesomely smart folks here.
hugs