Thank you Beth, Lexie and Suki. I do know I can't stop him from completing his suicide if that's what he wants. That's so hard to hear yet something I already know back in my mind.
What I am going to do for now is go about my business for the day...there are shedding horses that need assistance to shed that hair out (my least favorite spring activity) and supplies for the barn to be picked up and bathrooms to clean. I need to give myself a break from HIS reality for awhile. I get so caught up, I can't see the forest thru the trees.
Thank you for listening (again!) and putting up with me.