DestinyM - I think you just had an aha moment.
Very very few of us don't come from family who has been distorted by alcoholism/addiction. We go to what we know...that's part of being the child of an A.
I can't even blame my idiot RAH for where I am, I got here all on my own, well that and my A upbringing. It's sad. Makes me want to send my kids off to therapy now to keep them from ending up the same way.
I reccomend Alnon. I'm not a joiner. I don't make friends easily, probably because I don't trust very easily...but I finally went on Valentine's day and saw how life can be for me. It can be so much better than what it is now!!! Please give it a try. You will come out stronger for it!!