@Ricki Thanks for your 2 cents man. I have thought about trying moderation but I know that I would go back to what I was just doing a week ago and my home life cant take that anymore. My wife is tired of my BS. I am def going to get into the gym I think that would def help me. I dont get the shakes or any physical withdrawl sign. The thought of drinking just consumes my brain all day. Good luck with the moderation man!
@Dave, the more I read this site the more honest I am becoming with myself. I do have a problem and I cant moderate and I just need to do whatever I have to to recover. My work has a mental health program that I can use that I am going to take advantage of. So i think that will help. Happy early birthday man. good luck on your journey as well.
Kevin