Welcome, Apex, to SR. I would agree with Hugger, except, IMHO, an alcoholic can nevermoderate drinking. Your body chemistry will not allow controlled drinking. I'm sure it will appear you are able for a period of time, but inevitably you will find yourself drinking more and more. And the fear of never having a beer again? That's your booze brain thinking for you. From personal experience, you can survive quite nicely without alcohol. You have to redirect your thinking which will become easier as you cleanse your system of the poison. Once the booze brain becomes quieted, clearer thinking will allow you options to living your life without the hindrance of a bottle. Best of luck to us all.
Pádraic