Hi Curry-
It turned out that once I removed the alcohol, I was still stuck with me being me and thinking about me and why I don't like me.
AA gave me a design for living I sorely needed, but I'm not special. It can work for you too.
I rarely live in self now (pride or pity) and I'm starting to become a productive member of society again.
I'm also starting to like the new me and I don't get in my own way nearly as much anymore.
We can and do recover and you can be living proof.
Kjell