Hi Westie...I in my second month of sobriety and I can relate to so much of what you say. I too love my wine and was using it to escape from everything, including my verbal and mental abuse of the past. I don't have alot of words of wisdom as I'm still on the merry go round as well. This is a great site however and I'm glad you have found it, you will find lots of compassion and wisdom here to help you. Everyone has certainly helped me get to the next day. Welcome!!!!