I keep trying only to fail...
Hi, I just joined. I have been a heavy wine drinker for about 30 years now. I know I have a serious problem. I joined AA in December 2010 and I can't seem to get past day 6 with my sobriety. I am also in a verbally abusive relationship and the minute he starts putting me down or yelling at me is when my mind starts telling me just to go out and get a bottle of wine, which I hide in my purse and drink in the bathroom. When he catches me he tells me I'm nothing but a drunk. I know he is correct. And from going to AA meetings I'm learning that we alcoholics have very low self esteem. Anyways, I don't know where I'm going with this. I just seem to be on a merry-go-round and I can't seem to get off the insanity trip. Any advice on getting past day 6 would be so much appreciated. Thank you.