I am similar to neomarxist, my body reacts to alcohol differently than people who are not alcoholics. So I can never have a drink or the cycle of destruction will start.
That being said I suffer from depression and I never would have been able to manage it without getting sober and recovery. I monitor my mental health because I believe that could be a trigger for me. I ve been fortunate that I'm strong in my recovery so that I have not relapsed during some of my depression relapses.
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