I for one struggle with that all the time. My only words to you are-do what feels right for you. Keep taking care of yourself and keep reading posts and going to meetings. Keep informing yourself and listening to what you need to hear. I don't know how it happens but suddenly you get to a point where you see things with clarity and you don't second guess the choices you make. Whichever choice that might be for you. It wont be easy to make the choice or stick with it. And when you have more information- you can always make another choice.