"My binges were like a reset button on my mind every few days so getting to experience my mind without a reset button brought new issues..."
I relate to this a lot. Except the "new issues" part - at least in my case, I think it's the old old issues over and over again. With me trying to mask them.
I truly relate to the problem here and now though, as this is what I do despite all he knowledge etc. I don't really have a reasonable plan HERE AND NOW