FP, I am saying a little prayer for you - that you find strength and calm today and have a better day.
I carry a little slip of paper in my purse with the serenity prayer on it - not that I can't remember it, but because it reminds me to remember to say it every time I see it tucked in there!
Stress does weird things to our brains. I have had similar situations happen over the last year. A few embarrassing moments, a few missed meetings, deadlines, school vacation days when I woke them both up anyway yelling they were LATE!!
I am learning that its ok to be human and right now, I am struggling. That's ok. This too shall pass.
Take good care!
~T