I'm be thinking of you MM.
Fear is a biggie for me too - I used to be so terrified I just didn't want to feel that way...now I know I can face any feeling, any emotion and get through it without resorting to drink....feeling won;t kill me, but drinking will.
You've been working really hard on your sobriety since 20th Jan - I'm trusting that whatever happens tomorrow that will be taken into account
best wishes M
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